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Rock Bottom


My teenage years were plagued by my body image issues. 


But the climax of my issues didn’t occur until I was 18.

At that point, I had stopped going to school because I couldn’t focus. Not only that but I had virtually cut ties with everyone aside from my parents and brother.

I would spend a lot of time playing games online and using AOL Instant Messenger.

One day I decided to meet-up with this girl I’d been talking to online.

We planned to meet at this pizza place across the street from me.

Now, I don’t know what I was thinking cause I literally had had no social interaction for months, but I felt I could handle it.

I was wrong.

The girl ended up bringing a group of her friends, as younger girls are apt to do, and this really bothered me.

After I said "hi" to her I excused myself to the restroom…

And left... 

The whole walk home I was thinking how much of an idiot I was, but figured I could just explain to this girl later online what happened.

Unfortunately, I never got the chance. 

She text me moments later and called me a bunch of expletives, and I honestly didn’t blame her.

Later that day, as I looked into the mirror– something I obsessively did back then– I realized that who I was didn’t align with the person I knew I wanted to be.

In a paroxysm of anger, I shattered the mirror.

And in doing so, I metaphorically shattered the shell that had been holding me back the past several years.

You see, I had hit my version of rock bottom.

Not only were my issues hurting myself and my family, but now they were hurting random people.

I knew right then and there I had to change.

And although I still had numerous challenges to overcome, from that day on, I was dedicated to improving myself. 

Some people say rock bottom is a dark, awful place, and I’m sure it can be, but I see it a bit differently. 

Rock bottom for me helped put my life into perspective and gave me the courage to fight my way out towards the life I knew I deserved!

-Ryan, Persona Coach

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